Laughing uncontrollably with Dhamma - A letter to Ian Reclusado

A letter to Ian Reclusado:

haha! whateverthehell is a good way to call it. I've been wanting to wait a bit of time and let the dust settle before writing something about it. I'm slowly trying to put all the pieces together here, so bear with me

I have never been one to be into the whole metta movement, as a matter of fact, the way I always saw it was as yet another emotion that arose out of appreciation for everything around us.

Acariya Maha Boowa describes his experience of realizing the Supreme Dhamma while shedding tears of joy and amazement. I believe this “whateverthehell” was something similar. The initial realization was extremely clear, as clear as the aftermath of the fruitions I experienced while attaining 4th path. While the human reaction (aka the 5 aggregates in action) after attaining 4th path had a relaxed, almost lazy, and an utterly feeling of completeness, the reaction on Tuesday night was a lot more flamboyant. I can truly say that there were the Skandhas the ones typing on my phone the messages, all the laughter, all the tears of joy and amazement, as it Jorge Freddy was simply the messenger running back to the kingdom to tell them the news about what had happened. Every time I go back and read what I wrote, I get a weird feeling as it seems as if there was someone else who wrote it (the writing style is NOTHING like mine). Maybe it was indeed a moment of euphoria and I lost my mind for a few hours? Probably not, as I remember clearly how in the here and now I was at the moment.

I remember saying to myself: “This is it, huh. It’s metta. Yes! It is all metta. I see it now. That’s all there really is”. There was also an overwhelming feeling of clarity and awareness, as the feeling after getting up in the morning from dreaming, but a lot cleaner and crispier.  I kept looking around with this huge desire to tell everyone about it. I made sense to me, I had yet realized Supreme Dhamma, and this time, it was all metta that manifested through the Skandhas. Nothing else to see, for those looking for what’s beyond. Nothing more to find, for those searching for the truth.

Hopefully I get to expand more on it soon. I have been trying to find some time to sit down and examine this experience really deeply. There are some subtleties that I believe to be key in putting all the pieces together. I know everyone, specially more advanced practitioners would appreciate it.

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